Twist, Random and Music

Life's a twisted tale of deception. In many ways.
It's like I m standing at a crossroad, watching people I know walk past.

How does one stand by the shore and watch silently as someone drowns?
Or worse, how does one look away when someone else is drowning someone you love?
And amazingly enough, how does one forcefully hold a loved one's head under water?
And how does one surivive it all?

Just things I've been thinking about. No, its got nothing to do with toto. Although, I got a start today when I saw someone walking on the street who I thought for a second looked exactly like Toto.
It was one of those insane moments of complete delusion and denial..It lasted just a second..a fleeting split second of..."Could it be..?" Heh. Obviously not.

I hate moments when you think back on the past few years and realise you might not ever be able to trust a friend again..and then you think of one person you can still trust..and that's supposed to make you feel better. It doesnt, you think. But then again, of course it does! Its a constant mind duel..I hate those! I'm constantly battling with my own two minds. Why can't they just be at peace with one another?

I think music is one of the most uplifting things in the world..listening to Bittersweet symphony on full volume made me feel more energised than I've felt in days. And it's just a song. And then I listened to Lazarus by Porcupine Tree, See you on the other side by good ol' Ozzy, and then some Spiritualized.. its a band Rich introduced me to. Quite a soul-seeping band, if you know what I mean.

Music really is a universal language. Along with movies and mathematics, that is. It's been around since the beginning of time, and it has the ability to move people - whether its moving them to tears, to laughter, to dance..whatever.

There's a song for every situation, every feeling, every outcry of anguish, every feeling of tranquility..
"Go find a place for your own shame" - Alice in Chains
"When the tears come streaming down your face, When you lose something you can't replace, When you love someone but it goes to waste, Could it be worse?" - Coldplay
"I survive against the will of my twisted folk" - Porcupine Tree
"The Street heats the urgency of sound, as you can see there's no one around" - Smashing Pumpkins
"Ain't no Sunshine when you're gone" - Bill Withers/Marvin Gaye/Buddy Guy/Tom Jones
"So you lost your trust, that you never should have" - Coldplay
"...that it only takes a minute of your precious time to turn around and I'll be two steps behind" - Def Leppard
"She wishes for wet, verdant grass..Meadows, where she used to lie imploring stars...So dismayed she's lost, yet elated 'cause he's gone, Her misty stolen eyes narrate the horror that once was" - Kryptos :)
"I know it's easier to walk away than look it in the eye, But I will raise a shelter to the sky and here beneath this star tonight I'll lie" - Dream Theater
"I'm the one for you, cos I know all the dirty things you like to do...I'm the fear in your eyes, I'm the fire in your flies, I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head.." - Third Eye Blind
"Reality held its breath too long...its disgusting what dreams can do" - Evergrey
"If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you..Mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me" - Led Zeppelin
"No one dared...disturb the sound of silence" -Simon and Garfunkel
"I want to feel your flesh enrapture me" - Nevermore
"I'm in love for the first time, Don't you know it's gonna last, It's a love that lasts forever, It's a love that had no past" - The Beatles
"Your momma told you that you're not supposed to talk to strangers,Look in the mirror tell me do you think your life's in danger here, ya" - Ozzy Osbourne
"Outside the rain fell dark and slow, while I pondered on this dangerous but irresistable past time" - Pink Floyd
"I got a place where all my dreams are dead" - Porcupine Tree
"I hurt myself today, to see if I feel...I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real" - Johnny Cash
There's SO much more...and of course then there's also... "what goes around goes around goes around..."
CHEE.